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Thursday, June 9, 2016

More Sex PLEASE?

Okay. I am about to get real personal. Are you ready? Sex. Let's get straight to it. The first time I had sex I was 23. Yes, 23. I wanted to wait to have sex with an amazing person and I did. I am glad I didn't have it when I was 16. I am by no means judging anyone that did, I personally just feel like I was not emotionally or physically ready. Now that I've had sex, I want it all the time. I am not joking. I think about it on a daily basis. I think about when I want it and where I want to have it.  I have a lot of different fantasies of me and my boyfriend doing it in different places. (I told you it was going to get really personal). I didn't even realize I was like this until I was no longer a virgin.

I love everything about sex. I love the closeness. I love the rush. I love the feeling. Everything is SO great. I literally will cancel all my plans, everything, just to have sex. I thought boys were the one's that thought about sex all the time but as I get older and talk about it with other girls, girls want it just as badly Yes, that's right, I would have sex at least 4-5 times a week if I could.

It's hard when you're 24 and don't have your own place to have sex whenever you want. I have to wait until my parents aren't home or get creative. Lately, my boyfriend as been so busy with school and work that we haven't had sex as much as I'd like. For the first week or so it was fine, but after that I started to go crazy. I didn't realize just how much I needed it until I wasn't getting it. I went 22 years without it,  but now one week seems like an eternity.

For a few weeks I didn't say anything to my boyfriend about wanting sex. I sat back and hoped we would get alone time. I didn't want to seem too desperate. I know it sounds dumb. Girls are "supposed" to play hard to get and not be easy, or so that's what everyone says. You know what? I think they're wrong. If you want something then go get it. Don't just sit around and hope it happens. No tell you boyfriend, girlfriend, partner, whoever that you need it. Sex is something that is so beautiful and makes every part of you feel amazing. Why shouldn't we have it as much as possible!? Also, why shouldn't we talk about it more?

When you have sex you forget about everything. It's just you and that person sharing an amazing experience. You live in the moment when you're having sex. You aren't thinking about the past or the future, you're thinking about right now and just enjoying every touch. It's incredible.

Sex is a necessity. It is also such an important part of a relationship. If something isn't working for you, you need to tell you partner. Communicating before, during and after sex is so important. Don't feel ashamed about anything. Sex is too good to have it be ruined by fear. If you want it, then do it.

-N

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Loving Out Loud at 24

I've always heard that being 24 is the best. Too be honest, it is pretty amazing. I have no responsibilities and can decide to do what I want when I want. I have nothing and no one holding me back. It also is a weird age to be though. 

I just started my first full time job and let me tell you, I could get used to these pay checks. Going from part time to full time is not as bad as it may seem. I am around older people now. By older I mean like 28, 29, 3o year olds. Many of them are going on these crazy vacations and have been in serious relationships for awhile. Then there's me. First job, first legit boyfriend and first year out of college. Sometimes I feel like I should be doing the same things that these 30 something year olds are doing. I have to take a step back and realize that I am not at the point yet and that I need to enjoy every moment of every day because one day I will be 30 and I'll wish I was 24 again. 

This year has been amazing so far. I am so happy with everything. I know gross, you probably don't want to hear any of this sappy stuff but I am telling you anyways. Not everything has been perfect. There have been a few things bothering me. I wanted to start this blog so that I could write about these things to help me work through it. I can go into detail later about these issues but I'll give you a bit of a summary right now. I don't want to leave you hanging because lets be honest I am not going to write everyday. Just when I am in the mood. 

Okay. First thing that has been bothering me. I don't have a work best friend. I know, I know it sounds dumb but I feel like everyone else does and I kind of feel left out. I'm very friendly with a lot of people at work but haven't found that best friend, you know? 

Second thing that's been bothering me. I finally have a boyfriend. He is amazing and sweet and hot but he has like no free time. Now I am a person who loves alone time. I can't be with someone 24/7 but we only see each other like once a week. Lately, when we do hangout we end up also hanging out with his group of friends. It was fine for awhile, but I need alone time with JUST him. I am going crazy, To be honest, we haven't had sex for awhile too. This is freaking me out. I am planning on talking to him next time we hangout, but this whole week I have been going insane. 

Like I said, I'll go into more detail later about all these things, but for now I am setting the foundation for what's to come so get ready!! 

Third thing that has been bothering me lately is moving out. Yes, I still live with my parents. I just graduated last year and I am trying to pay off my loans and save so I can move out and live in a somewhat decent apartment. I feel like I don't have nay space in my house though. My parents are always home and I can't even get away in my own room. I sound like a teenager but I don't even care. I want to move out sooooo badly but have no money. 

Sometimes 24 is not so great. Life isn't perfect I know. Every day you learn something new and get closer to where you want/need to be. I decided that this blog is going to help me do that. If you have any comments, questions anything, I gladly encourage you to speak up. I am a pretty open person and like reading how other people feel about situations. Thanks in advance! 

-N


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